I was traveling on train 3days ago

& I had a strong feeling saying that," I miss you babe...."

 Yes I misses you alot =)

A crazeeee week!!!

Guess It’s enough of complains with my works&studies from my previous post! Let me share with you the events I had in the past 3 days. I shall begin from Wednesday night =) Went out to Sunway Pyramid with Ajita for dinner. The SMART me suggested PaPa Jones. Everything was acceptable for me except for the cheese sticks. Eww…Totally TASTELESS!! Sooner after that we arrived in Royal Oak bar@JayaOne. This is my favorite hangout place as the drink is soooo cheap!! Guys, 3pints of Kilkenny/Guiness stouts for 50 bucks only!!!! We had a long chatting & catching up session with Kwek, Victor & Nadia. I have no idea why we ended up talking about religion & where will we be after we passed away. Well, no matter what it is, I had a deep thought after that!

The fun I had on Thursday is twice the amount of Wednesday. 7hours of karaoke session at Jusco Cheras Selatan with Greg, Leong & Steph. It is actually the first time I sing for that long! & no BREAKkkk~ in between!! Before I went home, Daniel called to drink at TTS2.Come on la…I got BM exam on Friday afternoon and I had revised Nothing! No…Nothing at all… And god is so nice to me, I met them right on the middle of the road outside TTS2 when I was sending the people home. That left me no choice but to stay and drink. And finally I was at home when the clock hit 4am!! Wtf?! There only I remembered that the modem in my house got a lucky STRIKE few days back, thus nobody is able to online and another chatting session was initiated again until 6am!!!!

If I said Thursday I had 70% satisfaction, then Friday would be definitely a 100% one! We had a long-delayed birthday celebration for Eryl Yeong yesterday at Pavillion & Crown Regency Apartment. Waited half an hour before the food was served when all of us were starving…..the food is nice! I was in loved with my soft-shell crabs pasta *thumbs up* x2 =)

Next, after settled down in Crown Regency, IMMIDIATELY we started the drinking partyyy! Eryl, the “birthday” boy was forced to down a few cups of redbull-vodka & whisky-coke. He was down after 30minutes the party started and we proudly declared that MISSION is ACCOMPLISHED =)

The party went on for the next few hours until WengYan brought out her “secret weapon” – Bacardi 151. I don called it liquor as it tasted exactly like iso-propanol which I smelled a lot during the research experiments. Eee-yiakkkk~ I can assured you that no people is able to stay sober after taking in the “killer drink”. And due to some reasons, I only managed to have the one last sip which I think is more than enough to bring me go round the world.
Sooner or later, after everyone fall asleep and went home. I went to the mamak stall nearby to get myself a pack of cigarette. I knew I was about broke my promise to myself, but all the shitty things stressed me up to the max. Plus all the effect of liquor I drank, cigarette seemed to be the final way out for the night.

Is it really so???

I had been experiencing “emotional roller-coaster” lately. The question “why is this happening??” stayed in my mind for few days and yet, I still couldn’t come out with the solution. Well, I know this shouldn’t be happening to me at this critical moment, but I just can’t get rid of it. Year3 final examination is going to visit us in less than 3weeks time and I still have 1 more assignment left untouched. Too much of slacking made me guilty to the max!! But even God can’t help it, coz I’m just that LAZY =)

Kay, let’s back to the main topic! I questioned myself millions of time if I did contribute enough to my R&D group research report as chuan complained that he need more time to finish his part. & sorry to eryl for making him wasting his precious time checking my sentence flow, grammar and references. Felt really really bad when he told me that I actually quoted the wrong journal. Hence, I don’t mind doing the extra job - come out with RAW data sheets and a BLUFFED logbook as it is required in my final report.

Another thing is I am not sure if I should continue putting in more efforts in what I’m currently doing. Realizing what I had done is actually meaningless; I had a sudden feeling of giving up. Well yea~ saying is always 100000x easier than doing it! The thought strike every single part of my brain cells and I finally made my decision this morning=)   Whether it’s a wise choice or not, I shall now leave it to Mr. Time to reveal the answer.

怎么了

也不知从何时开始，对自己没了自信，觉得自己很无能.....很多原本以为“没问题”的事情都变成了大问题！

夜深人静，是个让我好好思考的时候。是我之前太有自信了吗？还是我一直都只是把事情搞砸而我却从来不知情？

我变得越来越不想和人分享烦恼，就算有天大的麻烦，也要自己一个人杠下来！

一直以为自己可以什么都不在乎，但原来那是假的！

我想哭，不敢哭，因为我怕被人瞧不起！所以我选择逃避，尽可能利用笑容掩盖我的悲伤！

stay strong~

nonsense!!

To M******a gov, this is seriously NONSENSE!!!!

u hv millions of better things to do rather than spending RM10b on organizing a Formula 1 team!!

with that amount of money, you can hire alot of good lecturers from overseas to improve the education standard in our local universities! & that will definitely not cost you RM10b.

with that amount of money, you can hire people with higher education level and has a better sense of moral&humanity as our gov officers- the police. when they had a higher pay, the chances of "N-anti rasuah" will be greatly reduces to "anti rasuah"!

with that amount of money, you can make the country better by improving the public transport, at least, so it wont take you 1& a half hour to travel from kota raya to subang jaya!

with that amount of money, you can offer more scholarship to students who wants to study but no money..........& tat's me =)

What is the point of starting a F1 team? To show to the world that "Malaysia Boleh"? To prove to the world that you can build a car that is compatible to Ferrari or BMW?? or to show that we can eat roti canai while driving a car moving with 290km/h??

No WAY!! Sorry to tell you that we are not up to that standard yet! not even near to it! try asking a baby to run when he is still crawling on the floor!!

Grr.......Please! Stop being an idiot and spare your "kindness" to your "beloved" citizens!

Another tired day

Today is my 2nd last day working for May-ying jie in her photo shop....hmmm.....Very first of all, thank you yik long gor gor for getting me the job! The pay is surprisingly high! Well, this help out alot in my financial problem. BUT! The BEST thing about the job is not the pay! It is the FOOD that they are supplying!!!GORGEOUS!! The shop is located in the same row with Mamak Murni (1 of my favourite dining place)~~woo hoo~~

Managed to make some new friends in the shop, and surprisingly i met with ting and jason who are working for the shop as well! =)
This made my time working there a lot more relaxing. We were busy talking bout our "history" in Poi Lam high school. Thank you jason! You are a very good entertainer~

So basically our working routine is to burn CD,Media Print and last but not least,packaging! The packaging part is totally a God Damm Job!!we need to be extra careful by checking every photos' code at the back as some of the photos were missing or not printed.And shits just happened every night!!! = =
It is confirmed that we will miss out some!!! At a result,we will need to take the "wrongly placed" photo and re-arrange them. This is time consuming and extremely confusing.

Well,it's enough for the sad case! Now let's get back to something that i learnt from the job. I had finally mastered the Adobe Photoshop software!! I know it's not something to be proud of, but at least i'm no longer so "noob".....hohoho~~

Hmm...will share the story again some other day coz it's getting LATE!!!

good nite &
sweet dream everyone

Life is so damn unfair!!!!!

Once again,i am start thinking something that i should not think anymore! Why is everyone is able to go overseas to continue their studies while i got to fucking stuck right here in Malaysia??

Seeing all my ex-classmates are all getting ready to fly, I am soooooo jealous with them....How much I wish I could go UK as well...=(

Well, this certainly is impossible for me! No money, where also don need to go....