也不知从何时开始，对自己没了自信，觉得自己很无能.....很多原本以为“没问题”的事情都变成了大问题！
夜深人静，是个让我好好思考的时候。是我之前太有自信了吗？还是我一直都只是把事情搞砸而我却从来不知情？
我变得越来越不想和人分享烦恼，就算有天大的麻烦，也要自己一个人杠下来！
一直以为自己可以什么都不在乎，但原来那是假的！
我想哭，不敢哭，因为我怕被人瞧不起！所以我选择逃避，尽可能利用笑容掩盖我的悲伤！
stay strong~
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
nonsense!!
To M******a gov, this is seriously NONSENSE!!!!
u hv millions of better things to do rather than spending RM10b on organizing a Formula 1 team!!
with that amount of money, you can hire alot of good lecturers from overseas to improve the education standard in our local universities! & that will definitely not cost you RM10b.
with that amount of money, you can hire people with higher education level and has a better sense of moral&humanity as our gov officers- the police. when they had a higher pay, the chances of "N-anti rasuah" will be greatly reduces to "anti rasuah"!
with that amount of money, you can make the country better by improving the public transport, at least, so it wont take you 1& a half hour to travel from kota raya to subang jaya!
with that amount of money, you can offer more scholarship to students who wants to study but no money..........& tat's me =)
What is the point of starting a F1 team? To show to the world that "Malaysia Boleh"? To prove to the world that you can build a car that is compatible to Ferrari or BMW?? or to show that we can eat roti canai while driving a car moving with 290km/h??
No WAY!! Sorry to tell you that we are not up to that standard yet! not even near to it! try asking a baby to run when he is still crawling on the floor!!
Grr.......Please! Stop being an idiot and spare your "kindness" to your "beloved" citizens!
u hv millions of better things to do rather than spending RM10b on organizing a Formula 1 team!!
with that amount of money, you can hire alot of good lecturers from overseas to improve the education standard in our local universities! & that will definitely not cost you RM10b.
with that amount of money, you can hire people with higher education level and has a better sense of moral&humanity as our gov officers- the police. when they had a higher pay, the chances of "N-anti rasuah" will be greatly reduces to "anti rasuah"!
with that amount of money, you can make the country better by improving the public transport, at least, so it wont take you 1& a half hour to travel from kota raya to subang jaya!
with that amount of money, you can offer more scholarship to students who wants to study but no money..........& tat's me =)
What is the point of starting a F1 team? To show to the world that "Malaysia Boleh"? To prove to the world that you can build a car that is compatible to Ferrari or BMW?? or to show that we can eat roti canai while driving a car moving with 290km/h??
No WAY!! Sorry to tell you that we are not up to that standard yet! not even near to it! try asking a baby to run when he is still crawling on the floor!!
Grr.......Please! Stop being an idiot and spare your "kindness" to your "beloved" citizens!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Another tired day
Today is my 2nd last day working for May-ying jie in her photo shop....hmmm.....Very first of all, thank you yik long gor gor for getting me the job! The pay is surprisingly high! Well, this help out alot in my financial problem. BUT! The BEST thing about the job is not the pay! It is the FOOD that they are supplying!!!GORGEOUS!! The shop is located in the same row with Mamak Murni (1 of my favourite dining place)~~woo hoo~~
Managed to make some new friends in the shop, and surprisingly i met with ting and jason who are working for the shop as well! =)
This made my time working there a lot more relaxing. We were busy talking bout our "history" in Poi Lam high school. Thank you jason! You are a very good entertainer~
So basically our working routine is to burn CD,Media Print and last but not least,packaging! The packaging part is totally a God Damm Job!!we need to be extra careful by checking every photos' code at the back as some of the photos were missing or not printed.And shits just happened every night!!! = =
It is confirmed that we will miss out some!!! At a result,we will need to take the "wrongly placed" photo and re-arrange them. This is time consuming and extremely confusing.
Well,it's enough for the sad case! Now let's get back to something that i learnt from the job. I had finally mastered the Adobe Photoshop software!! I know it's not something to be proud of, but at least i'm no longer so "noob".....hohoho~~
Hmm...will share the story again some other day coz it's getting LATE!!!
good nite &
sweet dream everyone
Managed to make some new friends in the shop, and surprisingly i met with ting and jason who are working for the shop as well! =)
This made my time working there a lot more relaxing. We were busy talking bout our "history" in Poi Lam high school. Thank you jason! You are a very good entertainer~
So basically our working routine is to burn CD,Media Print and last but not least,packaging! The packaging part is totally a God Damm Job!!we need to be extra careful by checking every photos' code at the back as some of the photos were missing or not printed.And shits just happened every night!!! = =
It is confirmed that we will miss out some!!! At a result,we will need to take the "wrongly placed" photo and re-arrange them. This is time consuming and extremely confusing.
Well,it's enough for the sad case! Now let's get back to something that i learnt from the job. I had finally mastered the Adobe Photoshop software!! I know it's not something to be proud of, but at least i'm no longer so "noob".....hohoho~~
Hmm...will share the story again some other day coz it's getting LATE!!!
good nite &
sweet dream everyone
Friday, August 7, 2009
Life is so damn unfair!!!!!
Once again,i am start thinking something that i should not think anymore! Why is everyone is able to go overseas to continue their studies while i got to fucking stuck right here in Malaysia??
Seeing all my ex-classmates are all getting ready to fly, I am soooooo jealous with them....How much I wish I could go UK as well...=(
Well, this certainly is impossible for me! No money, where also don need to go....
Once again,i am start thinking something that i should not think anymore! Why is everyone is able to go overseas to continue their studies while i got to fucking stuck right here in Malaysia??
Seeing all my ex-classmates are all getting ready to fly, I am soooooo jealous with them....How much I wish I could go UK as well...=(
Well, this certainly is impossible for me! No money, where also don need to go....
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
even i myself din't realize bout it, this thing had became my best friend when i was upset and frustrated.
some say it's a waste of money, some say it's a source of pollution, and most of them say it's harmful to health, but why do i care? at least it is with me when i lost my direction! at least i am able to release my mm-shong-ness!
some say it's a waste of money, some say it's a source of pollution, and most of them say it's harmful to health, but why do i care? at least it is with me when i lost my direction! at least i am able to release my mm-shong-ness!
叛逆的孩子
发现自己越来越叛逆了，很多时候家人说什么都听不进去了！
我又做错了吗？我变坏了吗？为什么我做什么都好象得不到他们的认同？
都就来二十一岁了，有自己做事的一套是正常的吧 ？为什么一定要跟着你的那一套咧？跟你那一套的方式有差就是错的吗？
唉，由得他啦....最重要是自己要认清自己人生的道路！没人认同也没关系！
我又做错了吗？我变坏了吗？为什么我做什么都好象得不到他们的认同？
都就来二十一岁了，有自己做事的一套是正常的吧 ？为什么一定要跟着你的那一套咧？跟你那一套的方式有差就是错的吗？
唉，由得他啦....最重要是自己要认清自己人生的道路！没人认同也没关系！
梦想破灭
等了酱久，所期待的梦已来到了将近破灭的地步。 Birmingham......英国.....近在咫尺却又那么的遥远。 可能真的是有缘无份啦！
虽然很不甘心，但我却谁也不能怨，家里没钱又不是他们的错，要怪就怪生意被低迷的经济彻底摧毁了！
算啦！人生不如意事十之八九.....讲下而已，有酱容易看开就好咯！
虽然很不甘心，但我却谁也不能怨，家里没钱又不是他们的错，要怪就怪生意被低迷的经济彻底摧毁了！
算啦！人生不如意事十之八九.....讲下而已，有酱容易看开就好咯！
Sunday, July 5, 2009
what should i do??
oh yeah! i had finally knew my 2nd year results. it's a 2nd upper class (not bad huh!)
And now i'll be able to continue with my task. the very first thing i should do is to apply loan. if everything goes fine....come on,if and only if,i am leaving to UK on this coming september.
Well, I always wanted to continue my studies there. But somehow things just don't run-on smoothly. After i talked to my family about my plan, it seems that they don't really agree with it. they want me to continue my studies here in m'sia as i need not to handle my burden of loan when i start my career. I cannot deny what they said is reasonable, but i really feel like flying to UK.
I'm now so damn confused! should i continue with my own plan or should i just follow what they want me to do??
Arghh....someone please give me some advise! =(
And now i'll be able to continue with my task. the very first thing i should do is to apply loan. if everything goes fine....come on,if and only if,i am leaving to UK on this coming september.
Well, I always wanted to continue my studies there. But somehow things just don't run-on smoothly. After i talked to my family about my plan, it seems that they don't really agree with it. they want me to continue my studies here in m'sia as i need not to handle my burden of loan when i start my career. I cannot deny what they said is reasonable, but i really feel like flying to UK.
I'm now so damn confused! should i continue with my own plan or should i just follow what they want me to do??
Arghh....someone please give me some advise! =(
Saturday, June 27, 2009
颓废的一天
明明就很累又没东西做，但一大早因为尿急醒过来后，就再没睡着了....顶！
都不知做么，最近总是没精神.
唉，反正都醒了，于是乎我又是开电脑看戏....接连看了几集“康熙来了”，是很好笑，但是始终都觉得很没瘾！无论有几好笑都没能跟人分享！=(
好想去看Transformer 2 :Revenge of the Fallen,但是找不到人一起看！身边所有人好象都已经看了。难道要我一个人坐在戏院里‘傻杠杠'甘咩？没可能，我又唔是某人！是边个大家心照啦！=）
不知不觉又过左一个月，多几天Daniel 终于要Balik Indonesia 了！有点不舍得，很想回到大家一起上课的日子！
如没意外，下个礼拜出成绩了！好兴奋，好期待之余，还有一点怕怕...万一"肥佬"就大祸咯！！
愿佛祖，allah，耶稣& 各方神圣多多保佑！！弟子一定刴猪还神！对不起 allah!将就点啦！
好啦，今天就到此为止！ Ciao~
都不知做么，最近总是没精神.
唉，反正都醒了，于是乎我又是开电脑看戏....接连看了几集“康熙来了”，是很好笑，但是始终都觉得很没瘾！无论有几好笑都没能跟人分享！=(
好想去看Transformer 2 :Revenge of the Fallen,但是找不到人一起看！身边所有人好象都已经看了。难道要我一个人坐在戏院里‘傻杠杠'甘咩？没可能，我又唔是某人！是边个大家心照啦！=）
不知不觉又过左一个月，多几天Daniel 终于要Balik Indonesia 了！有点不舍得，很想回到大家一起上课的日子！
如没意外，下个礼拜出成绩了！好兴奋，好期待之余，还有一点怕怕...万一"肥佬"就大祸咯！！
愿佛祖，allah，耶稣& 各方神圣多多保佑！！弟子一定刴猪还神！对不起 allah!将就点啦！
好啦，今天就到此为止！ Ciao~
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Horrible journey
it was just 2 days ago which i travelled back to KL by train. hmm...that was a bad one!!
the only good thing that i experienced was the punctuality & the speed of the train. It departed at 9am sharp & it actually surprised me as the KTM i had took so many times in KL was never on time. there is always a delay of about 10 to 15 minutes.
And right after i rushed into the train, it started to move. heh...i myself was late as well!! And so i tried to look for my seat, as usual, my seat was occupied. this is very common to me. they never follow the seat no. printed on the ticket. I bet i'll never know why....Are they so dumb that they understand what was the seat no. printed on the ticket? Tak apa! I'll sit some other place & get settled down.
Settle down always means falling asleep for me. =)
I was suppose to be sleeping until i reached KL Sentral as i was quite tired. But that did not happen. I was waken up by the heat inside the train 30 mins after i sleep. at first i tot it was the sunlight which heated me up, and so i pulled down the curtain and continue to sleep. NO! it wasn't the heat by the sun. The air-cond wasn't functioning. GOD DAMM IT!!! Lousy betul...
Nvm, i tahan aje! i'm not the only one suffering, other passengers are the same too!
But this is not true!!!!!! when i walked to the washroom, the other half of the train was so cooling! I even saw people wearing jacket! knn...i should have sit here lo!!
Back to my seat, i saw passengers around me woke up also...hoho...u guys oso beh tahan d leh! most of them were waving their hand, hoping the get some "wind"! Pathetic huh?! people on the other side were wearing jacket & we were struggling to get some "moving air"!
Since nothing could be done, i played my handphone games, trying to concentrate on the game and forgot about the hot-ness. Who knows there comes the "interesting" part - my hp blacked out and cannot be restart anymore. it is "dead"! =(
As soon as possible, the train reached Rawang and stopped. Hehe... I saw ppl from the air-conditioned area leaving. Without thinking, i quickly shifted there! phew....finally!! i can fell myself cooling down. this is so great! i hate sweating while travelling!!
the train arrived at its destination in about half an hour time after taking a short break at rawang. Throughout the journey, i can only manage to enjoy the air-cond for the half an hour. tat's doesn't worth my Rm18 at all....
the company shouldn't launch this service if they are not fully prepared. how can they use such an old train to travel for such a long journey. and even if it's not that old, they should have checked & service the train before they depart. it is so warm inside.
And lastly, they should enforced the passengers to follow the seat no provided. Follow the rules ma....
the only good thing that i experienced was the punctuality & the speed of the train. It departed at 9am sharp & it actually surprised me as the KTM i had took so many times in KL was never on time. there is always a delay of about 10 to 15 minutes.
And right after i rushed into the train, it started to move. heh...i myself was late as well!! And so i tried to look for my seat, as usual, my seat was occupied. this is very common to me. they never follow the seat no. printed on the ticket. I bet i'll never know why....Are they so dumb that they understand what was the seat no. printed on the ticket? Tak apa! I'll sit some other place & get settled down.
Settle down always means falling asleep for me. =)
I was suppose to be sleeping until i reached KL Sentral as i was quite tired. But that did not happen. I was waken up by the heat inside the train 30 mins after i sleep. at first i tot it was the sunlight which heated me up, and so i pulled down the curtain and continue to sleep. NO! it wasn't the heat by the sun. The air-cond wasn't functioning. GOD DAMM IT!!! Lousy betul...
Nvm, i tahan aje! i'm not the only one suffering, other passengers are the same too!
But this is not true!!!!!! when i walked to the washroom, the other half of the train was so cooling! I even saw people wearing jacket! knn...i should have sit here lo!!
Back to my seat, i saw passengers around me woke up also...hoho...u guys oso beh tahan d leh! most of them were waving their hand, hoping the get some "wind"! Pathetic huh?! people on the other side were wearing jacket & we were struggling to get some "moving air"!
Since nothing could be done, i played my handphone games, trying to concentrate on the game and forgot about the hot-ness. Who knows there comes the "interesting" part - my hp blacked out and cannot be restart anymore. it is "dead"! =(
As soon as possible, the train reached Rawang and stopped. Hehe... I saw ppl from the air-conditioned area leaving. Without thinking, i quickly shifted there! phew....finally!! i can fell myself cooling down. this is so great! i hate sweating while travelling!!
the train arrived at its destination in about half an hour time after taking a short break at rawang. Throughout the journey, i can only manage to enjoy the air-cond for the half an hour. tat's doesn't worth my Rm18 at all....
the company shouldn't launch this service if they are not fully prepared. how can they use such an old train to travel for such a long journey. and even if it's not that old, they should have checked & service the train before they depart. it is so warm inside.
And lastly, they should enforced the passengers to follow the seat no provided. Follow the rules ma....
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
sien...
after so long,i updated my blog again.....at a very wrong moment. =( i am suppose preparing for my MHM(B) test tomorrow.
my last semester in taylor's has started for about 6 weeks, and the workloads are getting more and more. yet i am still chilling everyday. Gosh~this shouldn't be! i am suppose to be busy doing revision and read up literature for my synthetic jet project. i just dono why i cant make up my mind and study. well, i can only say that i'm too damm LAZY!!>< can some1 plz slap & wake me up??!
today's lesson was a piece of shit!!! the morning class,computing for design, as usual...i dreamed throughout the lecture hours.anyway,even if i listened to wat Dr.M was talking,i'll not understand as well. To me, he is just bull-shitting. the lab session and DoE class are much better compare to computing class because there is NO marwan!!!!
i'm abit upset about the DoE test result....i scored 13/25,which is considered a FAIL to me.i swear i'm well prepared to the test,but i made a mistake during the test--->tak bawa calculator(bodohnya aku)
k la, i think i shud back to my study d,otherwise i'm gonna burn midnite oil again. ><
ciaoz~
my last semester in taylor's has started for about 6 weeks, and the workloads are getting more and more. yet i am still chilling everyday. Gosh~this shouldn't be! i am suppose to be busy doing revision and read up literature for my synthetic jet project. i just dono why i cant make up my mind and study. well, i can only say that i'm too damm LAZY!!>< can some1 plz slap & wake me up??!
today's lesson was a piece of shit!!! the morning class,computing for design, as usual...i dreamed throughout the lecture hours.anyway,even if i listened to wat Dr.M was talking,i'll not understand as well. To me, he is just bull-shitting. the lab session and DoE class are much better compare to computing class because there is NO marwan!!!!
i'm abit upset about the DoE test result....i scored 13/25,which is considered a FAIL to me.i swear i'm well prepared to the test,but i made a mistake during the test--->tak bawa calculator(bodohnya aku)
k la, i think i shud back to my study d,otherwise i'm gonna burn midnite oil again. ><
ciaoz~
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